I LOVE YOU

I don't mean to rise up my voice..

I don't mean to pretend didn't hear anything...

Sorry I expressed wrongly my inner feelings...

Sorry if everytime i did it hurts you...

If only you know how much I LOVE YOU...

If only you know how much  I CARE...

If only you know how much I WORRY about you...

I'm not that kind of person will show my true feelings...

You should have know me more than other people..

I might saw history repeat...

I don't believe this is karma to you..

I admit i'm selfish and heartless act of mine...

Because you don't know how i dislike to hear those things...

I just wish to have happy weekends everytime i'm back here...

Maybe you don't know how much I used to HATE to be back...

But you are the reason sometimes i come back...

Stay with me till you can..

It might be a fact or future thing i have to face..

But sorry not now...

I don't wish to face it all now..

I used to imagine but till now i don't have the answer for it..

I don't know how will i react if that day really arrive...

I LOVE YOU..

Is the 3words I hardly tell u face to face...

Happy Birthday To U & Me

Well was suppose celebrate Jelly's Bday on Sun night~

Somehow I got cheated as well...><

Our Bday cake =)

Present from we all..hope u like it...=)

Suppose to do a card but found these cubee craft....so cute..^^

Thanks to our Patternism Member...^^

XD

haha..they are having some "competition"

My 1st Bday Present from my best "mother"..luv it...

My 2nd Bday cake from the TWINS!! thanks alot x1000

Chipmunks...XD

 My 2nd bday present from the TWINS~~!!! thanks a lot x1000 again...=)

What a bday celebration...

What's my age?

Sometimes I will forget about my age...ha..

No matter how presents look like...

It's from the heart I'll appreciate it...

Hearted you all forever... =)

Thanks for all the wishes in fb and sms

Nevertheless some phone calls as well

Amnesia

Just watched an episode of "真相" @ "truth"...

A TVB drama...

It says about how an old experience lawyer suddenly got amnesia...

WOW

Straight away crossed my mind...

WHO?

Who else if not my aunty at Singapore..

Also have been wondering how would they feel?

Years of memories just lost in a second..

Might there and might lost forever...

An experience head of Nurse just have amnesia..

Her 70+ life memories but part of it just gone..

I don't wish to think anymore..

Maybe i'm too emotion...

Good Night

Back On Track

Not really in the good "shape" for past 2 days..

Frustration is all over me...

Maybe I handle things wrongly..

Maybe I put myself into too many responsibilities..

I don't know...

Sorry if I did offended anyone..

Don't talk to me when I'm really not in the mood is the best way...

I might intend to say something direct from my heart w/o cares 4 ur feelings...

Being silent is the best way I think...

Sometimes I rather takes all the blames and wrongs...

Just for people around me better...

I might be stupid but I don't know...

I would like to thanks for the creator of Budweiser...

Without it I can't really have a nice sleep last night...

Not a productive me yesterday so I need to catch up with my work today...

GAMBATEH~~!!

Frustrated

I slept with tears and woke up with tears...

I don't know what makes me awake at 7stg AM...

I just awake with those feelings that i hate it a lot..

Tiredness and etc...

I wish to runaway..

Why am i taking such responsible? 

Why am i taking all these shits...

Is my problem for not handling things well?

Or what the fucking matter it is?

I'm so piss off with myself...

I'm struggling with my own self Principe..

If only i can ignore everything....

Be selfish~

New Investment

Something crossed my mind today...

Before this i still hesitate but now is for sure...

I'm so going to buy a Polaroid Camera...

I hope to snap with that camera..

Picture of it can straight away give to the person..

Yes, if I managed to go Singapore on 9th Oct...

I hope to snap pic with my aunt...

Give her the pic on spot...

Put at her bedside...

Preventing her forget me...XD

I don't know will she forget about me now..

I don't know will she remember about my existence... 

How far is her memory?

I even don't know will she wait for me to visit her...

Be strong and you will see me soon...

I'll like to chat with you...

I'll like to snap pic with you...

I'll like to see the smile I used to see...

I'll like to hear ur voice which I almost forgotten how it sounds like...

I'll like to say "take care" and "wait for my next visit"..

A lot of things I'm awaiting to do with you...

God Bless You...

O.o...This one cost rm1200...OMG...i like the design so much but not the price

Hmm...this 1 not bad...got dv cam feel...XD

This 1 looks more compact and easy to bring out...but nothing special... 

I like the eye viewer there...something special...XD

Promise

I HATE to see people i care got hurt...

especially when they cried...

I really can feel the pinch towards my heart...

Some more want to post pic...

Ouch~

Some more want to put as profile pic...

WTF~!

I tried to ignore and skip the pic as I can...

I don't look at his profile pic if I can...

I'm so speechless..

I don't hope he will do anything silly...

I hope he knows I can be there for him..

I hope he will call me if he needs someone to talk to..

JUST don't do and give me surprise again...

I'm freaking busy with assignment and campaign...

YES~!

I might forget to care for people when i'm too busy..

I might unconsciously put them aside...

But I hope you all won't feel so..

I'll entertain whenever I can...

I'll still show my concern and care beyond my capability...

That's a promise towards my friends...

Will Never Change~ =) 

Letter of Concern

I will always remember how surprising a friend emailed me... I remember i received it while I'm studying for my Account final paper..I'm so touched till i cried...I can say she is one of my invisible friend...can't by my side but always there to care for me...even though we seldom contact...she always felt herself played not enough as a friend role in me...and i always say she didn't and always in my heart and mind...the longest letter of concern I ever received from her...nevertheless the longest english letter she ever wrote in her life time (exclude exam essays).. her letter of concern pop up while I'm in depression and stress stage..."Don't always take yourself as a GOD"..the last sentence in her letter...and it always in my mind till now...my dear...believe me i still remember every words of yours in the letter even though it have been 2years from now...you are one of the person that light me up in the dark....I might not the real God but I can't change the nature in me... I tried to less up the job of a "GOD"... it have been months i think i didn't see you... take my words...I'll go find you when I have spare time... always love you...*invisble hug* from me to you...=)

p/s: for those who cares about me..I know and will keep it in my heart and mind...I'll repay beyond my capability...

Weekend

Back Taiping on Friday...

It might be my last weekend at here..

Will begin to busy like hell i assume...

Once I reached I was being fetched by my lovely cousin...

Therefore I'll like to give him a treat...

SUSHI KING~~!!

Ate till both of us damn full...

my 2nd cousin brother (camera shy..hard to snap a photo of him)

Brunch haven't digest already have to eat dinner with mom & aunt..

After dinner went to buy movie ticket..

While waiting to fetch my eldest cousin brother I went to Starbucks..

OMG I'm still full so i just treated my youngest cousin a Grande...

my youngest cousin brother

(me: do u want to pose?

him: i so handsome..pose no pose also nice one ..>o<)

Today went to Old Town Kopitiam for brunch with my cousins and Evon..

Sorry I realized I forgotten to snap ANY picture of her...><

Foods and cousins pic i keep snapping nia...XD

there goes my eldest cousin brother

happy?

food ordered by 4 of us that cost rm70++..O.o

 funny conversation:

Evon: I like a picture of yours..help me snap one...

Me: Which picture? I snap a lot picture of myself...><

Evon: That 1 you laying on the table with headphone one..

Me: oh...where you want to snap it wor?

Evon: Find any table i lay down ma can snap already lo...lol...

Me: >o

Evon: also from you la...photographer should provide all those stuff wert...

I do like my weekend a lot...maybe I love hanging out with friends and cousins..but I also spend a lot this weekend..><...going to miss my cousin brothers when i back Kampar tomorrow...hope no more surprises from someone anymore...love you like i said before...=)

Indescribable happiness

While waiting for my dinner just now i checked my fb...

The happiness that can't be describe...

"im back home oredy...nonid worry ♥"

A post i saw at my wall....

I smiled and did relieved...

Is the "owner" opening his door to let me in?

I really don't know how 2 describe my feeling...

Something that in my heart and mind for days...

Something that indeed bothers me somehow...

This wall post really part of the medicine...

This wall post released some of my stress..

If I do cry now i can tell u is a happy tears...

Hope this will be something permanent...

No more surprises...

Love ya....

=)