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Something that crossed my mind....

This sem break going to be a lonely one...

All the plans are just being crush....

End up i'm alone back hometown...

Don't wish to go back that early....

Who willing to carry me as a burden for them for holidays?

Suddenly wish to go somewhere alone...

Without acknowledgement of anybody...

Lying to my parents...

Just me alone since that is what it begins with...

Eveyone got their own busyness... 

Everyone got their own planning for holiday...

the question is what if something happens to me?

memory loss and there's a new chapter of my life...

haha...just like watching a drama...

gosh~

so the question is should i or shouldn't i...

but i think the possibility is kinda high...

just follow the flow~

woke up le~

heartbeats abnormal~

yea itz scary....

i paused for a moment and asked...

where am i?

i didn't turned back the time right?

the feeling and situation so familiar...

nope i still at sept 2010...

my heart still beating very fast....

still calming myself down...

Don't ask me as i don't know what I've dreamed ... 

tried to relax thru "hillsongs"...

not working...so here i am...

sleep or not?

it falls le~

WHERE ARE YOU ALL?

WHY far from the eyes near to the heart....?

WHY spiritually...?

hope you all having a sweet dream...

ME?

i wish i had but not for today....

In DArk

Totally not in the mood for exam...

Totally can't find what i've lost...

I'm tired and really don't wish to care of anything for a moment...

But exam is near...i just can't ignore it...

Dad said try my best to get higher than previous CGPA...

My back pain is irritating me...

Wish to pull out all the veins at the back to makes me senseless...

I felt lost...

I can't find what i want...

I can't find a place that can brighten me up...

I can't find people to talk because i even don't know what i want...

I just felt myself a zombie...

Alive yet dead...

Did a very "chong dong" action to follow Lili's car to KL...

I just want to runaway...

But realized KL wasn't the place i should hide...

I wish to go further...

Get lost and disappear for sometime... 

I wish somebody will by my side...

Anyone and whoever...

Just don't have to talk and let me feel the existence...

Maybe i felt lonely at the same time...

Just a not in a good shape Mushroom....